Obsession

I always thought of myself as an obsessive person. When I am given to something, I am totally given. Funny thing is I always just labeled myself as such, and never thought of it as a character flaw. It is one of my character traits… obsessive. I would define myself as such. Here is the question that I was recently posed. Is there anything such as a “healthy” obsession?

In order to answer that I wanted to find out where the word obsession came from. Dictionary.com gives us an insight as to the etymology of the word.

Word Origin and History for obsession

n.

1510s, “action of besieging,” from French obsession and directly from Latin obsessionem (nominative obsessio) “siege, blockade, a blocking up,” noun of action from past participle stem of obsidere “to be siege” (see obsess ). Later (c.1600), “hostile action of an evil spirit” (like possession but without the spirit actually inhabiting the body). Transferred sense of “action of anything which engrosses the mind” is from 1670s. Psychological sense is from 1901.

I never thought of the idea of my mind being under siege, whether internally or from outside influence. I tried to validate this obsession, instead of understanding that their is a war going on for my mind with thoughts that “I could not resist”. I would obsess over “good things”. How could it be wrong to put in extra hours? When reality is I was denying God’s provision, and letting my fear of not having enough money control me. Yet at the same time I would spend on things that were for betterment. I would buy the next book by a popular Christian author as it would help me to grow in my walk with Christ. Seems I was still feeding that obsessive part of me, except now I justified it.

I can’t say that my mind is not still under siege at times, but I can say that the bible gives me direction to help with these thoughts. Philippians 4:8 says “Finally brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things”. James 1:14-15 says “But each person is tempted when he is lured and enticed by his own desire. Then desire when it has conceived gives birth to sin, and sin when it is fully grown brings forth death”.

Do I want to give in to this obsession? At times I do, and at times I believe the lie that if it is a healthy pursuit then it is ok, but in reality I am just feeding that temptation. I must stand firm in the truth or the lies will swallow me and it will grow. Grow into something which I cannot control. Something that leads to death. Spiritually, emotionally and perhaps even physically. I thank God for his Word, for when I read these passages, they affirm what I know inside to be true already. And by His grace and truth, victory is already His, for I am His in Christ.

God bless and good night,

Steadfast

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